I hate you, Mr. Fate

Today is just not my day
Tears of sadness streaming down my face
A broken camera lens, broke my heart today
Threatens to dash all my hopes of something great

Another cruel joke Mr. Fate has thrown in my face
A twist of fate has made this such a bad day
My mind just refuses to contemplate
How will I know make a living from what I can't afford to replace

Oh fate, how much I hate you today
Just break my heart and throw it away
What twist do you have in-store for me tomorrow
Something else to break & bring me sorrow

How silly it seems to cry over a broken lens
If you could see Mr. Fate, inside my heart, would you then
Understand how much joy, taking natures photos, fills my heart again
Please just stop your cruel twists of fate

For I must sell my pictures just to buy a loaf bread for God's sake
Look Mr. Fate these are not tears of joy streaming down my face
Fate you twisted my heart then shoved it back in
Such struggle we all have go through, just to survive these days

Will you take what hope for a better life I have left
Go ahead, dam you fate, dash my heart on those your cold stones, fate, whats next
Did you not see how happy taking pictures made my heart not break
Dam you cold fate, now how do I fix what you broke, without money to replace.

Written by
Asha
July 24, 2010

my price to survive...

When was it spoken so...
My place on this earth made so cold...
I gazed up at the sky...
OH how much I wanted to fly...

Your face I'll never loose control...
My life spitting out my soul...
The sun it shines reminding me of you...
Why can't I forget these memories so blue...

Somethings in my way...
As I try to contemplate...
Never ending is never done...
Your death took with it all the fun...

Even the orchids forgive no one just yet...
Days of grace are lost in tangled webs...
I've been trapped inside your magnet of life...
Forever in death is my price to survive...

If I had to loose my mind thinking of you...
What would you have me do?...
I would loose my soul into infinity...
My love for you was meant for eternity...

Lately there's been too much of this...
But right now I'm stuck within this bliss...
Where is my ending that fits with now...
Maybe one day there will be no more doubt...

Written by
Asha
2010©

think I'm just done....

I'm not strong, I'm just weak...
I'm not dumb, I'm just numb...
I'm not like them, I'm just me...
Think I'm just done...

Shame on this world, making me swirl...
What do they know my own truth...
Foolish are the thoughts, you silly girl...
I lost my soul, just thinking of you...


Paranoia is deep in my own hell...
Whats the use living without you...
Fight my way back, from your spell...
Love myself better the fool...

I'm not strong, I'm just weak...
I'm not dumb, I'm just numb...
I'm not like them, I'm just me...
Think I'm just done...

My world looks so bleak...
So where do I go...
How many miles will I seek...
To lose my soul to you, how do I know...

infinity now what I seek...
See you again on that yellow moon...
I am weary of my mind grows so weak...
How long must I wait for my endless doom...

Blessing of this life have all passed my by...
There is no more sun, no more fun...
It's time for me to just die...
Come take my hand, holding this gun...

Friend all just hide...
They don't want to know...
How much I needed them to survive...
Nothing is left haunting memories of you...


I'm not strong, I'm just weak...
I'm not dumb, I'm just numb...
I'm not like them, I'm just me...
Think I'm just done...

Written by
Asha
2010©